Mine:
Feb 18: Well I been home for two full days now. I love being back home cause as soon as I got here and when my dad picked me up he was rather talkive which was not like him. When I got here on the way I saw that a few things have changed but not really all that much. It felt rather great to sleep in my old bed. When I stepped into the door I got a hug from my mom then placed my things into my room seeing that my bed was still there. After being here for a few mins or an hour me and my mom made darn good which is an anytime meal that has been passed down in my family. My brother and me went to the store to get a few things and I got to see an old friend of my brothers seeing that he had changed. It was werid cause me and my brother are acting like we dont hate each other. We have been talking and laughing like we are friends which I guess is a good thing. I will be going out to the bar tonight to watch my mom shoot pool. Me and my mom have been talking about a few things like how things are going as well as the guys in my life. I found out something about me that I had not known. I was talking to my mom about my health about how I have been having chest pains. She said it could be from stress as well as that I should really get it checked out cause at one point I had a murmur in my chest that is not a good thing. Funniest thing my mom has said is that if I move back here I should see about getting back into modeling or if I wanted to I should try to see about trying out to be an actress. I have not the body not the skills for either. I called a friend to see if she will or would like to hang out with me. I am still trying to see if a few others that are still down here if they would like to hang out while I am here until March 1st. But that is all for now I would say.

Feb 20: You know on my blog how Jeffie asked when he could call well I told him anytime cause Jeffie knows not to call while I am here visiting as were Zac doesnt well this would have been Zacs reply to my latest blog:

Zac typed: "So, if she hasn't already told everybody, I figure here is as good a place as any to let all her friends know she don't love me anymore. I mean, she said it herself to me on the phone soon after I got out of basic (she couldn't wait to say it to my face when I came home for christmas), but its also obvious in the callous way she speaks of me "I told Zac not to call me anymore". Its cool though, because while shes home she can hook up with friends and fuck buddies, I don't care anymore and she'd do it anyways. I'm sick of her, anybody reading this that wants her, take her. She can be you pile of emotional problems now. Don't worry, I'll file for the divorce eventually i'm sure, not jack shit I can do from Ft. Gordon tho."

hehe I think this is funny seeing as I dont have any fuck buddies cause the main people I came here to see was my family and maybe Rita, G, and Ari. So I will see about getting the papers myself then send them to him to sign. As well as I will see about moving back here with my family not sure how that will work with the two kittens meeting my old one. Plus there is still the matter of me getting all my things and bring them all back here. Yes I will be sad cause I will be leaving Samie and Mandy and Lina and Chris that are in Arkansas that has become my friends and one as more like a sister for she seems to be my twin and I love her for that. But I guess things are going to move faster now that he had FINALLY made up his FUCKING mind. So I guess it will be a great while before you all see me on here once more if I do move back here for there is no computer set up anymore though I will have to see how I am to get all my stuff off their computer so that way they will not complain about my shit being on there after I leave them. So I will see what happens when I go back there so I can talk to my family about what to do and Samie if you are reading this just to let you know if you hear from your brother please let me know what all has been said cause knowing him he is talking shit behind my back like he always does to you all though never to my face so I can fight back. But yea I think I been on here alot as of late on this topic so now I will let you all be and what nots.

My Husbands:
Feb 20: "I suppose I should put something here, short sweet and to the point, my relationship has fallen apart like so much sand slipping through my fingers. Not without me trying to salvage it of course, but two have to play that game for it to work and Rebecca Burgess just plain gave up on us being together I suppose. At this point she has so suceeded in alienating me from here though that I can't rightly say I really care anymore. I mean its obvious she has been trying to push me away for quite awhile now, I honestly believe she wanted me to just say "okay its over, I'll file the divorce papers", but I ain't doing it from here (plus the extra $1000 or so a month seperation pay because I "just can't bear to be away from my wife" does come in handy), it just ain't possible really. I won't go into detail here, but I got a well-enough plan on dealing with her shit she's pitching me. Meanwhile, I'll work on fixing my own life, an easy enough to perform, 1 man job. Here at Fort Gordon I got new friends backing me up, plus Jan has always been there for me so I got my support. I'm sure she has her own, but she has always been uncomfortably close to all her friends. As far as I'm concerned, Rebecca is excess emotional baggage, something I don't need, by all means though, if you happen to be reading this and want her, take her. Please. Move her and all her shit in with your own self, I trust my dad will help (and ensure she don't run off with whatever she didn't bring in).

Hindsight is 20/20 as always, and I realize now what a mistake it was to continue carrying the burden of Rebecca after the "SaintB Incident", I've no one but myself to blame for bearing that unnecessarry cross though. Rest assured, I'll fulfill my obligation to finish paying her medical bills (the baby she miscarried was half my DNA after all), and thats it. I've nothing more to say, I can't guarantee how often i'll check this, but my number is ***-***-**** if you wanna give me a piece of your mind."


My reply to his sister who gave me that:
I see and I am sure as hell your dad will be more than welcome to help me move out. But to be honest my family is more than happy to have me back here. I will be taking Goldie and Midnight with me as well as the self that I bought with my money I had when I first move there though not sure about the tv since Peter mainly bought it for me cause I couldnt play my vhs tapes. But I figured you would be on my side cause you have seen first hand how he treats me and thats just something he will never see cause he is like his father so much. But I will talk to my mom later tomorrow to see how I will go about getting all my things packed and moved down here. I will get the papers myself from the net I guess when I get back home so I can send them to him or you could look for them and print them out. But I was very pissed off by his words cause he truly doesnt know nor see why I am leaving him nor will he ever. And at this point your father is going to think this is all my fault and will take it out on me just like I told your brother yet he is rather clueless to the fact that he wanted me just as a sex toy to have when his games werent satifying him just right you know. But like I told him no one wants me cause really the only one that did has a gurl now and he is happy. All this shit is his fault though he will never admit such a thing. And I will no longer take his money from him to have him pay the bills. I will figure a way to pay for them myself. But the one person I would really like to talk to I cant cause he is having his own problems. But thank you for your update and I have Zac on block so I cant really see any blogs and stuff he posts.

But that is whats going on with me and him *sighs.*